I’ve been thinking about what a friend of mine said about his battle with cancer, and Job from the Bible. My best friend once said that if I were an animal I’d be an yellow lab because I am loyal to a fault. If the worst happens and I do end up having cancer (which I realize is jumping many guns at this point), there is no question what my reaction will be. When the time comes to choose between being angry with God or pulling closer to Him, I know what I will choose. I choose Him. Today, tomorrow, everyday.
I obviously have NO idea what is coming in the near future, but I know is that God has a plan (Jer 29:11). In that I will rest.
Thursday, October 24, 2019
Wednesday, October 23, 2019
On Second Thought...
My doctor just called with the results of my recent, and first ever, mammogram. Apparently there are some “abnormalities” in my left breast that they want to take a closer look at. I’m supposed to call later this afternoon and schedule a breast ultrasound (I never knew there was such a thing).
Everything I said the other day about dying is still true, but I really don’t want to have to put my family through breast cancer. Financially we are barely making it, but otherwise I feel like finally we are all doing pretty well - many obstacles in the rear view mirror. I just want my kids to have a joyous childhood! My SOD & GP have already taken so much from them, their childhoods, and our whole family. Please God, do not put us through a cancer diagnosis!
Everything I said the other day about dying is still true, but I really don’t want to have to put my family through breast cancer. Financially we are barely making it, but otherwise I feel like finally we are all doing pretty well - many obstacles in the rear view mirror. I just want my kids to have a joyous childhood! My SOD & GP have already taken so much from them, their childhoods, and our whole family. Please God, do not put us through a cancer diagnosis!
Tuesday, October 22, 2019
At Least They’ll Know That
If I died tomorrow, I would be ok with that. I’m not afraid of dying - I know where I’m going and there’s no worries there. My only concern is about the people I leave behind - more specifically, my kids and husband. This is about my kids, though.
If I had to leave my children tomorrow, I would have two great comforts:
1. They each know that Jesus loves them, and they all have relationships with Him.
2. My children know that I love them with all my heart and soul!
My children are the dream in my opinion. Being their mom - so much better than I ever imagined motherhood could possibly be. So much better than I ever thought life could be!
I have struggled a lot in my life, and I’ve been struggling with serious, painful health issues for years now. No matter my current circumstances - all I have to do is think of any one of my precious blessings and I smile. 😊
“My heart will never stop sending you love.” 💕
If I had to leave my children tomorrow, I would have two great comforts:
1. They each know that Jesus loves them, and they all have relationships with Him.
2. My children know that I love them with all my heart and soul!
My children are the dream in my opinion. Being their mom - so much better than I ever imagined motherhood could possibly be. So much better than I ever thought life could be!
I have struggled a lot in my life, and I’ve been struggling with serious, painful health issues for years now. No matter my current circumstances - all I have to do is think of any one of my precious blessings and I smile. 😊
“My heart will never stop sending you love.” 💕
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